Back in November of 2019 I was truly struggling. I was exhausted both mentally and physically. I was stressing myself out because I didn't feel as though I was good at anything. Sure, there were lot's of things that I enjoyed doing but nothing that I was passionate about. My thought process was completely out of whack. I kept coming up with all these ideas of what I could potentially be passionate about but never found anything. I became doubtful on this journey and finding my passion became somewhat of an addiction. If you are reading this and thinking to yourself that you aren't passionate about anything, that's okay! This situation is a lot more common than you would think.
As I became more doubtful I reached out to a friend of mine, my Astrologist actually. I told her that I was feeling out of sorts. I felt like I was searching for something but I just didn't know what. I mentioned that I was feeling very low and was beginning to distance myself from others. I felt like I didn't have anything to offer. Maxine gave me some advice that really pulled me out of a dark and scary place in my life. She told me to forgive myself. Not to just think about it, but to look in the mirror and say "I forgive myself, I love and approve of myself just as I am." Maxine also suggested that I need to do stuff out of an act of love for myself.
Instantly this clicked. This advice was so simple yet so powerful. Once I began doing things as an act of love for myself, many things changed in my life. I was doing things for ME instead of doing things that I thought would make me look good in front of others. I did things that made me happy, lit me up, made my soul and body feel good. I began doing yoga for the purpose of making me feel good and not to just get fit. I read books to gain knowledge. I listened to music that I loved. I began learning Astrology because it fascinated me. I wasn't focusing on getting really good at one specific thing. I wasn't searching anymore. I was feeling out what my interests actually were and letting that guide me.
Looking back now I can't believe that I spent so much time searching for passion. This was nothing but a mindset. A mindset I couldn't reach due to many factors. I was missing the point all together. Maxine emphasized that I deserve to be happy and that I don't need one passion. Following your interests and curiosity, loving all your interests and knowing that you are divinely guided is the reason you are called to something. It doesn't need to be a big thing right away, you don't need to add pressure, let peace come first, and surround yourself with positivity.
The term passion is described as a strong and barely controllable emotion. This shows that passion is not something you can just stumble upon. If you are feeling lost or stressed about not being passionate, just know that you may never feel passionately for one specific thing. You may just enjoy doing a variety of things. This is currently how I feel. I have a very mixed group of hobbies and interests. There is not one specific thing that I am extremely passionate about. Who knows maybe someday I will find a passion but in the meantime I am not going to trigger unnecessary stress upon myself. This does more harm than good. Instead I am going to embrace doing what makes me feel good.
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Xx. The Stressed Out Millennial
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