Expectation Of Change

@mushroomalice

Hello everyone. Long time no chat. I hope you are healthy and keeping well. I’ve been MIA on here since Valentine’s Day. I’ve been keeping busy though, doing lots of journaling and reflecting, arts and crafts, cleaning and organizing (what else is there to do right now, let's get real). Right now all of us are being faced with copious amounts of CHANGE with the pandemic in full swing. Sure we could talk about the pandemic and how it’s impacting us but let’s get real, that’s all anyone is talking about. Today I want to talk about personal change and the expectation that is associated with it.

I turned 25 last September. I’m at an age where everything around me is constantly changing. It’s been almost 3 years now since my boyfriend and I moved to Alberta from Ontario. At that time I didn’t really know what my timeline was and if I’m being honest I still don’t. If you are confused when I say my timeline this is what I mean. I’m constantly asked by friends and family, when are you moving back to Ontario and how long do you plan on doing this blah blah blah. For those of you that don’t know a whole lot about me I’ll give you a condensed version on why I moved. CHANGE and well money. I moved out here to pay off my debt that I accumulated in Ontario and I wanted to change things up. Moving to Alberta was such a huge change, I mean massive. This was the biggest thing that I had ever done. My boyfriend and I moved away from our friends, families, hobbies, jobs, you name it. 

In March of this year my grandmother passed away and to say the least it really messed me up. I guess when I moved to Alberta I just thought that everything would stay the same back home and when I moved back or finally figured out what exactly I was doing, I could just pick up where I left off (kind of selfish of me don’t you think?). I was journaling the other day and this all just hit me (like a BIG brick wall). “I can’t expect to change my entire life, move across the country and everything back home stay the same”.

My grandma had a lot of health issues over the past few years, actually shortly after I moved out west her health began to fail. My grandmother was tough and every time she got sick or her health got worse she seemed to just get better. That's the way it always was, but when I got the news that she wasn’t going to get better this time, I couldn’t quite accept it. How can it be? Someone that had been there my entire life was just … gone. I guess I just thought that I could change my whole life and that my grandma would just be waiting there for me when I got back. I don’t want this post to be sad or straying you away from change in your life but rather be more of an eye opener. We need to focus on our development and be aware of our time here on Earth. As you grow and change, you cannot expect other people or things to stay the same (they are growing and changing too).

If we start to look at change as an opportunity or even potential then it is much less scary. I talked about this in a previous blog post You + Growth = Change (go read it after this) how change is always perceived as a negative thing. Our expectation of change needs to change (wow look at that pun). If we look at change as a healthy concept then we can start living our lives with so much more awareness and meaning. As always, thanks for reading. I love to connect with you guys so don’t forget to follow me @stressedoutmillenial on instagram. 

Side note. I have already let some of you know that the subscribe by email button on my feed is going away in July. For those of you who have subscribed I appreciate you oh so much. I am working on getting a new feature added so that you can continue to receive updates via email. I may also change my platform all together but I haven’t fully decided yet. If you have any ideas for me I would love to hear them. 

Xx. The Stressed Out Millennial